Surviving Difficult Times: PTSD and Trauma

Many of you already know what I went through these past few years so I will not repeat my entire story. Let me just share with you what I have learned about surviving difficult times. I got Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) from a physical assault in 2012 (though many believe I was suffering from it long before I walked out of my more than three decades marriage due to the shocks I endured in that relationship). Finally I am at a place where I hope to help others with what worked for me as I clawed my way out of the darkness to where I am today. While I still have PTSD it is not as severe as it once was and hinders me less because I have found a few ways to survive difficult times. You or someone you know may appreciate what I have to share with you today.

Surviving Difficult Times:

  1. If you have any people in your life who are negative, critical or even in any small way unfair or abusive, avoid them. If you are struggling to get through a difficult time these types of people can only add to the burdens we are already packing. Yes, we may love or even be related to some of those people but tolerating any criticism or negativity from people we love is often more hurtful than from those we don’t know as well. This only exacerbates the situation we are in. Someone unfairly chastised me royally on a social site for posting a “funny” she obviously disliked. This triggered me and I did answer her but she blocked me. Clearly she is neither safe nor compassionate and blocking me was probably the best favor she could do though at the time it just felt like more abuse. We need safe, loving, healthy, kind-hearted people around us when we are experiencing difficult times. This doesn’t mean you have to end the relationship(s), only that you may need to avoid those insensitive, cantankerous types until you are through the rough patch you find yourself in. Avoidance worked well and is still working well for me.
  2. Surround yourself with loving, healthy people wherever possible. From your health care providers to your social circles, clean house as often as need be to ensure that you are being supported by only those who are “safe” with good and kind intentions. Nobody needs ill intending people in their worlds at the best of times but at the worst of times those people can just feel like one more source of aggravation and abuse we simply do not need or deserve. They are also extremely draining, the last thing you need when trying to build yourself back up.
  3. Find your happy place or space. This can look like your own cozy bedroom, a favorite park or an activity you enjoy from reading to running. You choose what it is that makes you feel better and if that is music, baking, camping out, visiting a friend, doing yoga or escaping into a good movie or a book, whatever, it doesn’t matter as long as you have a few moments or, perhaps, hours, away from what is constantly overwhelming you. Retreat as often as you need to into your happy place or happy space. Friends, books and long walks or writing are my go to’s for a break from my personal life challenges. I found it helpful to keep adding to my “safe” go to list as I went along and discovered things that were helpful for me. Often I still prefer to have no stimulation, no noise, no light, and just being still with myself. Somehow it re-energizes me and I am able to get back on the bike of life and pedal my way forward. When everything and everyone “hurts,” finding our happy place or space can take a little time but that’s okay too. Just go gentle on yourself as you find what works best for you.
  4. Tell people what you need. This was the hardest of all for me. Learning to be my own best advocate was fraught with challenges I could not foresee. Once when the bank overcharged me for something I panicked because I did not have enough money for my rent (this was all reversed by the bank and I did have enough for my rent in the end).  Meanwhile, the talks-too-fast clerk kept repeating herself and would not hear any of my questions. I started to cry and the bank manager and security people all came over which made me cry harder. Finally, stuttering severely as I do when PTSD triggered, I was able to tell them I have PTSD and requested a note be put on my file (I wrote the note which said: I have PTSD. Please be kind and patient with me. Sometimes English sounds like gibberish to me if my PTSD is triggered. Please speak slowly and please repeat yourself if I need you to. Thank you.) Nearly five years later that note is still there and the service I get at the bank is impeccable, very considerate and caring. With others I may decline an outing or a visit at the last minute because I just can’t take any stimulation that day. Knowing what we need is half the battle. I spent a lot of time asking myself what do I need because there were moments when I truly did not know. If you can figure out what your needs are, asking others to honor those needs is the best way to take care of ourselves in my opinion. They may not understand why we need what we need but that does not matter. They may never understand. What matters is we know how to take care of our needs to avoid being triggered or overwhelmed by all the things in the world that are out of our control.
  5. Seek professional help. If you have an emotional or mental condition that needs attention don’t try to manage it all by yourself. Talk to your doctor and if you don’t have a doctor, try to tap into your local community services to see if there is a Health Unit or other source of support or help they can guide you to. Trying to manage it all by yourself is not advisable. I do not know where I would be if I had not sought and availed myself of professional help. Going to trauma counselling for two years after I was assaulted not only gave me a safe place and person to help me heal but it also gave me many skills I learned from the trauma counselor herself. Simple exercises like counting my breath or counting the items in a room, anything to distract me from feeling panicked, overwhelmed and unable to cope still help me to this day. Luckily for me, where I live we have some terrific community services and I was able to get help for the legal process of court which took three years and also emotional support and guidance. Without the help I received I know for sure I would not even be here. Seeking professional help is always wise.
  6. Believe. Believe there is help available for you and don’t give up on trying to find it. Believe there will be better days because as black as this moment may feel, there will be better days eventually. I didn’t think there would ever be better days when I was in the midst of just trying to cope but there were and those then rare days helped me believe there would be more. Believe you deserve the help. None of us deserves to be hurt, lied to, criticized, abused or assaulted in any way, shape or form. When we have been good people and always done the right things in life it is hard to imagine why anyone would want to be so cruel to us for any reason. But some people just are. However much it hurt us, this is not as important as changing what we can for ourselves. We can leave, move away from or distance ourselves from harmful people and situations that are not good for us. It just takes time, professional help and focused effort to reach the place that is best for ourselves. Believe you deserve the best in life because you do.

These are just a few little things I share today as I work on a small book for survivors of PTSD and emotional trauma. There is so much more I could add but this is plenty for a blog post, I think.  Please note this list of what worked for me may not work for everyone and that is okay too. I am not a doctor or a professional in the field of trauma. I am just one survivor voice who could not find much that wasn’t academically written on the subject of trauma and PTSD. To that end, I hope to have my little book out by the end of this year to, hopefully, help others who need to hear from someone who has been there and shares her findings, not so much experience as findings because this is what I wanted for myself when surviving my difficult time in life. I wanted to talk to other trauma survivors, hear how they coped, learn coping techniques and I just couldn’t find that kind of basic easy to digest material out there. There was much on how the brain works but it didn’t help me one whit to cope or realize that I would survive this. So far so good, I am here, breathing and sharing. Today is a good day.

Questions and your thoughts are always welcome here.

See you next time.

(c) Janni Styles

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14 thoughts on “Surviving Difficult Times: PTSD and Trauma

  1. Sometimes I just don’t feel like being brave or strong. It is hard to breathe and those are the times I allow myself to feel the pain to be discouraged for no more that 30 minutes. Then I go outside watch the birds or rabbits, heck sometimes I just watch the cactus grow. I put on another bracelet or new lavender lip gloss, seach for the beauty of words in my soul sister’s pages. I learned an expression in ireland: Anam cara, means soul friend. Soul friends don’t tell me what they think is best for me but smile and dance with me in my dream, they let me fall and sometimes even help dust me off but mostly they trust, love, and respect me enough to allow me to be me. And some very special ones even miles and countries away seem to know just what to say even without communication. So dance with me my amazing beautiful Anam cara. Hugs and love as always, thanks for being there, Yotaki beautywalk

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    • This is just so beautiful, Yotaki. Thank you so much for adding your voice on this one. As always you are so wise and wonderful I wanted to read and re- read and I did. Anam cara, how beautiful. So delighted to b your Anam cara. Soul sisters, soul friends, what more could one ask…so grateful for your steadfast love and support. Love and hugs always to you my Anam cara. ❤️❤️❤️

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  2. Excellent advice. Take care of you!

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    • There was a time I would not have even been able to write this without bursting into tears. Since the three year plus court saga was finally settled in my favour my life is much more peaceful now, fewer triggers mean more peaceful happier days. This translates to, hopefully, more writing (I hope lol). Thanks kindly for your comment and constant support. ❤️❤️❤️

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  3. Apart from anything else, this is a very brave and honest article

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    • Thank you, Peter. That means a lot coming from you. Sometimes I think the best key to healing is to lose the fear of making oneself vulnerable. I also think this vulnerability is what connects so many human hearts despite the wrath of critics, online trolls and negaholics. The gentle, real connection always rises above all that just as it did when we connected here so many years ago. Thanks for always “having my back.” 😊

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  4. ‘Meanwhile, the talks-too-fast clerk kept repeating herself and would not hear any of my questions.’ I remember that Janni, fast talking people used to panic me too at my worst, and if they wouldn’t slow down I would get angry and walk out, it was a trigger. Thanks for writing it. 🙂

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    • It really is a trigger. I never liked it before PTSD but after…ugh…glad you relate but sorry you had to go through that, too. What I am finding is unless people have been traumatized or have/have had PTSD themselves, they just do not understand. When triggered it feels like my brain is stuttering just as much as my words. Thank Goodness for those kind compassionate souls who may not understand but made a world of difference for anyone who battles with this. Love and healing hugs to you, thank you for your read and comment 😊❤️❤️❤️

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  5. Sharing your brave journey will be so helpful to others. 🙂

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