The Seer

at first

everyone said

she was a witch

crazy in the head

until she read their

futures from

the ashes of their

burned woods

I see it all

she said, the evils

and the good

nobody’s ever

fooled me

yet

oh some think

they do

that never lasts

doesn’t take me long

for you see

I always know

ahead

what

humans are

about

(c) Janni Styles

 

 

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Who Is She?

Just reading a little about how to give readers something to enjoy when they land on your blog. Introducing yourself is the number one listed way to engage people by letting them know who you are as a person rather than just a name on a blog. So, for those of you who don’t already know me, here goes:

When I announced to my first grade teacher, “I know what I want to do when I grow up – I want to make books!” – I had no idea what lay ahead. Until you “make it” in the eyes of many, writing is nothing but a nice little hobby. Writing from as far back as I can remember, I recall my bedroom as a teenager, a small room used as an office in a former school house converted to a home, with the walls of my room covered in my poetry. Mom never gave me heck for that but I think she liked it, I did it artfully and with tidy penmanship. (Now we pay good money at stores to get writing for our walls!)

Writing is breathing and breathing is writing…

 Still more? 

BLOG

Blogging here at https://www.jannistyles1.wordpress.com is all I really have time or energy for any more and some days now, thanks to Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, Fibroymyalgia and other chronic health conditions, even that is in question so I often share old works, previous works or short poems. Told by a writing instructor that we need to write a million words, I believe it was from this quote:

“Start early and work hard. A writer’s apprenticeship usually involves writing a million words (which are then discarded) before he’s almost ready to begin. That takes a while.” ~David Eddings

Well, I’ve done my million… I think… here’s the short version:

BOOKS

One More Chance, a collection of short stories https://www.smashwords.com/books/view/475450

Spiritshine, a collection of poetry https://www.smashwords.com/books/view/475640

(have written four other novels, all of which need revising or polishing but hope to one day get them out there even if I have to publish them as free ebooks as I did above two works.) 

SHORT STORIES

First Place 2015: http://www.indiesunlimited.com/2015/06/20/janni-styles-wins-flash-fiction-challenge/

First Place 2001: Non-fiction (creative non-fiction) :http://www.siwc.ca/

Honourable Mention: Fiction 2000 http://www.siwc.ca/

First Place 2003: Christmas theme story local newspaper contest (Vancouver BC)

Writer’s Union of Canada: Shortlisted 2002 (for short short)

Third Place 1998: Copper Beech short fiction contest

Canada wide Essay Contest: First Place

Honorable Mention for short fiction work 1997 (1500 words): Tickled by Thunder Magazine  

POETRY

– Second place: Tickled by Thunder Fiction & Poetry Magazine
– Quarter Moon Quarterly, two poems published
– The Year’s Best Anthology: No Knight So White  

PUBLISHED 1990-2015

Short Stories/Flash Fiction:  “Curtains” published in 2014  here http://www.amazon.ca/Spooky-Halloween-Drabbles-Jorge-Salgado-Reyes-ebook/dp/B00O2A0G9O  and “Cheapskate” published in Spooky Halloween Drabbles 2015 here: http://www.amazon.ca/Spooky-Halloween-Drabbles-Druscilla-Morgan-ebook/dp/B0171WXDMQ

-Reviews: Live performance, movie and restaurant reviews (Man of Steel, The Diving Bell and the Butterfly, Bonnie Kilroe, Susan Jacks, The Vagina Monologues, The Good Lovelies, restaurants…etc)

– Various: Public relations material from brochure and web site content for Holiday Resorts, Interior Design College Instructor to poetry in Quarter Moon Quarterly and 5000 word piece on Domestic Violence for Attorney General publication, Our Canada Magazine 2006, Newspaper pieces 2003 -2006

 OTHER WORK

PROGRAM MANAGER civic government Heritage programs, Museum and Archives

VICTIM SUPPORT WORKER, also wrote articles & media for Attorney General, Justice Branch

PROGRAM OFFICER approving childcare facilities, writing newsletters & media

BUSINESS ADMINISTRATION ASSISTANT 20 years P/T (while working F/T in other positions as well)

CHILD DAYCARE for preschool aged children

RETAIL & HOSPITALITY

EDUCATION

 Anxiety Management; Coping Skills for Survivors of Physical, Mental and Emotional Trauma 

–  PTSD Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (identifying, coping/living with)        

–  Boundaries and Healthy Communication;  Dynamics of Healthy Relationships

–   Interior Design Consultant Diploma 

–   Creative Writing Diploma

–   Cross Cultural Awareness

–   Victim’s Services Certificate,  Attorney General

–   Victim’s Assistance Volunteer Trainer’s Certificate, Attorney General

–   Lay Counselor Training,  Victim’s Assistance & Sexual Assault Center

–   Stopping the Violence Conference(s) and Specialized Training

–   Conflict Resolution & Mediation,  Levels I-IV

–   University English Literature 

–    Business Communications, Supervision and Management Credits

–    High School Honors Graduate , Dogwood Diploma             

 VOLUNTEER EXPERIENCE

 Branch Representative – Community Coordinated Justice Committee  
 Board of Directors – Women’s Rape and Sexual Assault Center 
 Coordinator – Neighborhood Blockwatch Program 
 Board of Directors – Communities Against Substance Abuse Society  
 Public Relations Committee – Richmond Information & Volunteer Center     
 Assistant/Intern –  Richmond Publishing  House
 Animal Rescue  – Saving dogs from vivisection  

 REFERENCES 

Plenty …

Impeccable are both personal and professional references yet all completely useless because she is not who she once was.

She can no longer do what she once did.

She feels it is a good day now when her shoes match.

This is the realm of living with PTSD (Post Traumatic Stress Disorder), Fibromyalgia and other chronic health conditions.

When shell-shocked, you do not lose your intelligence. Merely your coping skills, your ability to focus and comprehend are all impaired as though you are drunk or have the flu. But you are not and you do not. You battle the fog daily and wonder if it will ever get any better. You wonder if this is as good as it gets.

When you realize that this may be so, you grieve another loss. The loss of yourself as you knew you. You come to terms with where you are and realize “I survived it,” “I AM a survivor,” I am ‘surviving’…

Writing is breathing… breathing is writing…    

(c) March 2011 : “There is no player so bold as the one who chooses not to engage in the game.” ~ Janni Styles

 

 

The Storm

in those places where
all rainbows start
back country weathers
storm the besotted heart
listen, hear your heartbeat
raindrops pounding
soundly on the roof
welcome chains surrounding
both weak and willful hearts
don’t squeeze the high
blue moon
too tight
enough wonder beaming
to just sit and sigh
love feels just like
touching
the end of the sky

(c) Janni Styles